sunflowa asked: come back to the tumblr world

Dear Sunflowa,

I can’t. I need to confess to something. Please don’t hate me but I’m not a midwife. I’ve been preparing all my life but so far I haven’t been able to pass the exams. Birthing is my craft and there literally wouldn’t be a life for me to live without it. I’ve been trying so long to become enlightened that I told you my false tale out of desperation. I was beginning to loose hope and I nearly believed that would never become a Reproductive-Specialist, a Birthing-Instructor, a Life-Bringer, a Bean-Catcher, a Midwife. I eluded to the idea that I was a Midwife so I could try one last time to brighten the stars in my dreams. I just wanted it so bad…I hope you can reach some type of understanding and learn to forgive me. I know its a lot to ask a total stranger but all I can do is give my side of the story. 

“And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I’m always dragging that horse around

And our love is pastured such a mournful sound

Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground

So I like to keep my issues drawn

But it’s always darkest before the dawn”

         -Florence + the Machine

XOXO(hugs and prudent placenta pecks)

~Callmemidwife